You Got Some Issues, Son!

This is about something that shouldn't be an issue. I'm not going to say her name, but you'll know damn well who I'm gonna start talking about.

I've been friends with this girl for a long time now, and it's gotten to a point where it will never be anything farther than a strong friendship. She will not cross that friendship line, and I've accepted that. I'm very strong-willed and moved on immediately. It has really surpassed anything. We can be together and not have this idea in our heads where we both think, 'What if?' I get on my myspace a few minutes ago and her display picture is her and this guy. For some odd reason, I was furious. Seriously, I was really, really mad. I have no idea why I was so mad. I don't have a thing for her. It's not some denial I have. I really don't think of her that way anymore. The only thing I could come up with was this:

I get so mad that she's hanging out with some guy and it's not me. Kinda like I have a fear of being replaced. She never has boyfriends, so I was always that main guy for her to hang out with. So maybe if she shockingly gets a boyfriend, then all of a sudden I have a much lesser role in her life. I don't want that. I would hate that. If I had a girlfriend and she didn't like her, she would have to be pretty amazing for me not to break up with her. I got to face the music someday, though. She's gonna get that boyfriend, I'm gonna get that girlfriend, and suddenly we won't be as strong as we used to be. That's what sucks about life. We move on to better things and find ourselves making sacrifices that seem to be unwanted and neccessary.