8/11: I Got Played

The following is from what i typed in a myspace group i'm in, where a bunch of guys talk about whatever the hell we feel like. This is a 2 part blog. The next post will be 8/12: Cheer Me Up. This true story is called I Got Played:

so i mentioned how i was seeing a girl that was 4'11" in my "How short is too short?" thread. i was pretty excited about this girl. we had a lot in common, definetly most connected i've ever been with a girl, and that's counting 2 girlfriends. we talked and went out for a couple weeks and everything finally seemed to come to place for me to have a subsantial, possibley long lasting relationship. what could go wrong? yesterday, i come to find out from her cousin, who i am great friends with, that's she's been talking to another guy. this isn't just any guy. this guy is my friend's crush! so we don't get confused, i'm gonna use real names, cause i like you guys.

Vanessa: girl i liked
Jenny: Vanessa's cousin, my friend
Mario: guy Vanessa is talking to, Jenny's crush

Vanessa knew for a while that Jenny liked Mario. Jenny sent Mario a text message a few days ago and he didn't respond. she naturally assumed he was busy. turns out Mario and Vanessa were texting each other behind Jenny's back. the next night, a bunch of Jenny's friends are over and she realizes her trusting cousin, Vanessa, is somewhere in the house not hanging out with the girls. Jenny goes to look for her and finds Vanessa in her room on the phone. she asked Vanessa who she was talking to and she respinded, "I'm talking to Mario. wanna say hi?" Jenny gets pissed and leaves the room. a few hours later, a few fucking hours later, Vanessa comes out of the room and tells Jenny, "I don't know what to say. I didn't plan this." she didn't even say sorry to her and she made no excuses. Jenny tells her, "You just fucked up everything with David."

so Vanessa, instead of calling me, or making me aware of what's going on, hasn't talked to me in 4 fucking days. it doesn't make any fucking sense. she's not some slut. she's not some player. she's this innocent, short, Portuguese girl. she acted first when it came to us. raving about how hot i am and how amazing it was of how we both were born in the Azores and all that stuff. and i thought the same damn thing. it was amazing how we clicked on all cylanders. for a second, i almost believed in love at first sight. so for her to do what she did was so ridonculously out of character and shocking to say the least. Mario betrayed Jenny, and Vanessa betrayed me and Jenny. its the most fucked up shit i've ever been apart of. i told Jenny to tell Vanessa for her to give me a call when she pulls her head out of her ass.

and that's how i got played.

Screw Getting Married! I Wanna Get Pregnant First!

Don't let the title alarm you. I don't wanna get pregnant, though I'm pretty sure I can't get pregnant. Girls can get pregnant, and nowadays it's been looking easier than days before condoms and birth control. So where am I getting at, you are probably asking? My family. My mom's side of the family. Here's what my cousins list looks like, including me and my sister:

Frankie
Elizabeth
Candida
Roger
Melanie
John
Daniel
Ana
Corrine
David
Vanessa
LeAnne
Justine
Stephanie

Frankie, Elizabeth, and Roger and siblings. Candida, John, and Ana are siblings, with Corrine as a half-sibling. Daniel, Vanessa, and LeAnne are siblings. Justine and Stephanie are half-siblings. And of course, me and Melanie are siblings. Now here comes the part that's related to the title.

Elizabeth had been with her boyfriend for a few years and then they had a baby. Then they finally got married. The baby was definetly a mistake.

Candida got pregnant from her boyfriend, and they are very happy together. Mistake baby again.

My sister, Melanie, got pregnant after being with her boyfriend for almost a year. Mistake baby. Now they are happily married. They got married when my nephew was 2.

John got some girl pregnant and the relationship wasn't gonna work out. I don't know if it worked out, I really can't remember. He lives in Kentucky. Mistake baby again.

Ana is my most recent cousin to have a baby, of course it was a mistake, and she seems pretty happy with her boyfriend. The baby has some weird name. Durgen. Sounds German, ja?

That's 5 freaking cousins that have had kids before getting married! What is up with that? I seriously think its like a curse or something. I have one other cousin to mention. He isn't my cousin, technically he is, but he's my mom's cousin.

My mom's aunt, my great aunt, from my granpa's side, so his sister. She had a kid a little later than most, cause she's the youngest of her siblings. She had a kid, who is now 21 years young (old now), name Ricardo. I call him Richard. Anyways, he got his girlfriend pregnant. She is 23 and already has a little girl. She got married straight out of high school, had a kid, got divorced, and lost custody of the child to the father. Way to pick em, Rich.

Last Sunday, I was in Fresno for his dad's 60th birthday party. I haven't tlaked to my cousin Richard in a long time, so we have some catching up to do. The guy is depressed. He doesn't even have to tell me, I can hear it in his voice. I can see it by looking at his body lanuage. He knows he made a mistake he can't escape from. He asked me, "What are yo doing now?"

I responded, "Just going to school, hanging out."

He asked, "Single?"

I responded, "Yeah, I'm single. Not ready to get tied down just yet." That response wasn't entirely true. I was just responded to relate to his situation. Then he said something to me that I won't forget. It's not what he said, it was the way he said it.

He said, "Enjoy it while it lasts."

He's 21, working at a dairy, living with the girlfriend he got pregnant, and depressed about all of that. I'm 20, going to college, keeping my options open, and really happy. It's amazing how he and I are the same, but we are on completely different paths in life. On the car ride home, my mom was saying how she thinks he is depressed also. Then she told me what Richard's mom told my mom. She said he was planning to break up with her and next thing you know she is pregnant. The girl tied him down on purpose! She knew she had a good thing going, so she sealed the deal by laying off the birth control and getting pregnant. What a fucking bitch!

All these cousins getting pregnant makes me wanna just holdout till marriage. That probably won't happen though. I'm not gonna have sex with the first girl that tries to have sex with me. If that were the case, then I woulda lost that virginity 2 years back. I don't want to be used either. I want it to be with someone I actually love and care for. If that special someone wants to wait till marriage, then I'll wait till marriage. I don't care. We all gotta make sacrifices in our lives, so that it pays off down the road. Besides Richard's relationship, all the other ones are going to work out just fine. I don't wanna be one of those people. I'm not hating on my cousins, but just because it all worked out in the end doesn't mean its ok for everyone else to do it. I want to make my family, and especially my parents proud, to get married THEN have a kid. That's the way it has to be. If you read this whole blog...thanks.